Hate thyself and die oh heart!

Ugly-ugly oh heart of mine art thee,
That bid thy lover be full of hate for me.
All thy beauty oh glorious skin of mine,
Now death consumes thy left-over shrine.

What caused thee to err in an unpardonable way as such?
What made thee such a reaper?
That sucked the life and blood and marrow,
Out of thy lover all day, all night, piercing it deeper and deeper and deeper?

Oh such sham,a camouflage; a hateful heart of mine!
Why do thee still wish for thy lover's love?
Such audacity,such arrogance,pride or shamelessness?do ye believe in God at all?
Oh hate thyself for being born,hate thyself and die,hate my heart hate yourself,
Don't ye dare look in thy murderer's eye.

Drink death as sweet as honey,
Tear down thy scarlet skin with the dagger of fury;
What do ye think Oh foolish heart,
Will it pain more than thy lover's wounded part?

Haah! Oh! hush that sound of thy wings,
What ye think,ye can escape Oh so quickly?
No my heart,not just right now,
Let that pain burn in thee, let it become thy agony.
Till ye have nailed thyself in the grave oh heart,
Till ye have felt those ripping, tearing fangs of the hell hound sharp,
Till thy blood,thy body,thy soul,thy shadow; hates thee shredding thee into pieces every hour...
And even then my heart...Hate thyself and die,hate thyself and feed...feed on thy wounds to make it cry......

Why? ? (Song)

1)
   What is so different?
   What is wrong, I ask you God.
   Why can't I move ahead?
   Why my world is rolling down?

Ch:
     Why oh God, does it pain so hard?
     Why, oh why, oh why?
     Jesus! my Lord why I even care?
     Tell me, why it's wrong oh God,
     To go into the dark?
     Am I made the light
     just to lighten up my own world...Oh God??

2)
   I can't be silent,
   Lord it's hurting everyday.
   Oh God please help me,
   This is over powering, come oh come my way,

Bridge: I don't wana live this pain,
           Oh I don't wana give it all away.
           No I don't wana hear them say,
           I just wana have that life again...

Ch:  Why oh God........... Oh God??

When Silence becomes worse than words...

Silence, the most beautiful of words,
Hangs down your mind like a jewel in place.
It's voice you hear deep within your spirit.
It's peace is that which you can not replace.

In joy you hardly go to meet it,
In sorrow it comes running by your side.
You love it dearly when you're angry,
Some times in its bosom you even wish to hide.

But when you're injured in your very soul,
You bid the silence harsh goodbye.
When words become your new refuge,
Silence pierces and perseveres with another try.

Then silence becomes worse than words,
Worse than breathing the hurt you got;
It kills you the moment you wake up every day,
Then leaves your body to stink, decay and rot.

Crimson stains declare your death all day long,
You walk like snow white locked in her glorious coffin box.
Silence still comes knocking, ready to consume your bones,
Then it becomes worse than words;
as it slowly chews off even the marrow with sweet groans.

Everything will be alright !!

(Everything will be alright)

So simple a word,
Such a simple thought,
But it's not what it seems like;
Just a simple dot.

Same pain all over again,
Same story arise,
Who says history doesn't repeat itself?
Ask those who are in the midst of that strife.

'Everything will be alright,'
Such a lame, annoying thing to say.
When my world is falling apart daily,
It's not for the comfort I pray.

Give me the answers,
The reasons unspoken,
Give me the justice, my heart is broken.
Show me the equality,
Show me 'yes I can live',
Don't give me just words,
Don't you shove me in a crib.

And when I can breathe,
In a world which is choking,
When I can blossom in the muck all soaking.
Every morning when I won't be getting up with another day to fight,
Then and only then tell me that 'everything will be just alright.'

Ye Aag Prabhu Ki (song)

ch ...
Ek aag hai prabhu ki, aur jal ke nikalna hai.
Haan sona banna hai,bas tap ke ubharna hai.

1)
Aajane do mashaal ko, ban jaane do vo bhatti.
Jo saaton baar garmaai ho, haan usme jalne do. (x2)

ch ...

2)
Niklungi main jo barf si,na daag koi na dhabba phir hoga kahin.
Ye Prabhu ki aag hai samet lo, na karo baer bas jal utho. (x2)

ch...

3)
Ek aag hai Prabhu ki bas jal utho,ese odh lo.
Ek aag hai ye Prabhu ki haan shwet niklo, bas Prabhu ke ho lo. (x2)

ch... (x2)

I wana grow old with You oh! Lord (song)

1)
You take me Lord,
You mold me up,
You give me peace & joy,
oh! You fill my cup.

I come to You,
just as I am,
oh use me Lord,
in the name of the Lamb.

ch:-
I wana grow old with You oh! Lord,
I wana giv my life into Your hands.
Am dieing out without Your embrace,
come fill me up with Your mercy & grace.
I wana b victorious in Your name,
I wana overcome,resist to the point of bloodshed.
Take my life & use it for Your glory,
I lay it down,here I am,take my potter this clay.
I wana grow old with You oh! Lord,
I wana grow old with You.

2)
I crave for You,
for You alone.
Come wrap me tight,
all weak I’ve grown.

Your love binds fast,
teary eyed I come,
arms spread open wide,
oh You call me ‘son’.

ch: I wana------clay.
I wana------old with You.
I wana grow old with You oh Lord,
I wana grow old with You.
©

Lawaris lahu ki mashaalein...

Lawaris lahu se arahin thi awaazen, ke achanak ek awaaz suni.

Kon tha us dariya me wo sahil,malum na chala.

Ke chalo us aag ko bujhado,jalti hui mashaal ko girado.

Kal na aega mit jaane do us nafrat ko.

Ke lahu de raha hain awazein, lut jaane do sagar ko,

Ke bujhado vo mashalein,aane de aandhiyon ko.