LIFE'S MOCKERY

No don't call me away from myself yet,
I just lost another of life's cruel bet.
Let me sit here and ponder a while more,
gaping,hoping at the closed black door.
knowing that he's not the one, knowing that it can't be done.

My mind is sinking; escaping than to accept,
it turned stubborn in its face; to the belief it crept...wept.
Come take away my memories of him and his words,
detach me from this full circle; make me fly away like those birds.

A bird he called me; look how my wings were torn apart,
dyed in crimson; heinously cut and thrown in the death cart.
Pull,pull,pull me to the old place afar,
his words of love burns me pleasantly; makes my heart coal and tar.

Alas! Alas!
It shall not come to pass...

IT...

Hard to find and quick to lose,
that's what it is;careful what you choose.
It takes away your nights;it sometimes surrounds you in darkness,
it makes you see all wrongs like rights;it sometimes levitates you in brightness.

Its distracting, attracting, pulling in its black hole when your reacting,
its forgiving, pursuing, the epitome of selfless sacrificing.

Beware its conquerors;it deprioritizes,
beware the unfaithful;it always revitalizes.

All this and no more,
recognize the real one before you're on all four.
Listen to this last rhyme and fix yourself before you pose,
careful;here's how it goes -
Do not grasp it above all things,
but do not blast it my friend; when you know divine confirmation it brings...

Super Massive

Hey don't tamper with the truth,
i want everyone to believe the lie.
Cause i don't want to deal with it,
It's too much to take,just leave it aside.

It's amazing how my strength increased a thousand times,
how my heart stopped beating, seized from mourning the twisted rhymes.

It is the best cure my aching soul obtained,
soothing someone else's cries than mine, the lost purpose regained.

I am happy in healing others, their sorrow,
I am happy to see their smiles that follow.
It seems am finally settling down,
Becoming a woman, winning the maturity crown.

You can't keep running till forever he says,
Oh how i wish he may not look through me, escaping is one of my ways.

The wind is colder tonight,
seems the storm is soon to hit the sky.
I wish to stand in it's midst firmly,take wings and with it fly.
I have to defeat again and again, i have to kill the stalker,black or white.