Hate thyself and die oh heart!

Ugly-ugly oh heart of mine art thee,
That bid thy lover be full of hate for me.
All thy beauty oh glorious skin of mine,
Now death consumes thy left-over shrine.

What caused thee to err in an unpardonable way as such?
What made thee such a reaper?
That sucked the life and blood and marrow,
Out of thy lover all day, all night, piercing it deeper and deeper and deeper?

Oh such sham,a camouflage; a hateful heart of mine!
Why do thee still wish for thy lover's love?
Such audacity,such arrogance,pride or shamelessness?do ye believe in God at all?
Oh hate thyself for being born,hate thyself and die,hate my heart hate yourself,
Don't ye dare look in thy murderer's eye.

Drink death as sweet as honey,
Tear down thy scarlet skin with the dagger of fury;
What do ye think Oh foolish heart,
Will it pain more than thy lover's wounded part?

Haah! Oh! hush that sound of thy wings,
What ye think,ye can escape Oh so quickly?
No my heart,not just right now,
Let that pain burn in thee, let it become thy agony.
Till ye have nailed thyself in the grave oh heart,
Till ye have felt those ripping, tearing fangs of the hell hound sharp,
Till thy blood,thy body,thy soul,thy shadow; hates thee shredding thee into pieces every hour...
And even then my heart...Hate thyself and die,hate thyself and feed...feed on thy wounds to make it cry......

Why? ? (Song)

1)
   What is so different?
   What is wrong, I ask you God.
   Why can't I move ahead?
   Why my world is rolling down?

Ch:
     Why oh God, does it pain so hard?
     Why, oh why, oh why?
     Jesus! my Lord why I even care?
     Tell me, why it's wrong oh God,
     To go into the dark?
     Am I made the light
     just to lighten up my own world...Oh God??

2)
   I can't be silent,
   Lord it's hurting everyday.
   Oh God please help me,
   This is over powering, come oh come my way,

Bridge: I don't wana live this pain,
           Oh I don't wana give it all away.
           No I don't wana hear them say,
           I just wana have that life again...

Ch:  Why oh God........... Oh God??

When Silence becomes worse than words...

Silence, the most beautiful of words,
Hangs down your mind like a jewel in place.
It's voice you hear deep within your spirit.
It's peace is that which you can not replace.

In joy you hardly go to meet it,
In sorrow it comes running by your side.
You love it dearly when you're angry,
Some times in its bosom you even wish to hide.

But when you're injured in your very soul,
You bid the silence harsh goodbye.
When words become your new refuge,
Silence pierces and perseveres with another try.

Then silence becomes worse than words,
Worse than breathing the hurt you got;
It kills you the moment you wake up every day,
Then leaves your body to stink, decay and rot.

Crimson stains declare your death all day long,
You walk like snow white locked in her glorious coffin box.
Silence still comes knocking, ready to consume your bones,
Then it becomes worse than words;
as it slowly chews off even the marrow with sweet groans.

Everything will be alright !!

(Everything will be alright)

So simple a word,
Such a simple thought,
But it's not what it seems like;
Just a simple dot.

Same pain all over again,
Same story arise,
Who says history doesn't repeat itself?
Ask those who are in the midst of that strife.

'Everything will be alright,'
Such a lame, annoying thing to say.
When my world is falling apart daily,
It's not for the comfort I pray.

Give me the answers,
The reasons unspoken,
Give me the justice, my heart is broken.
Show me the equality,
Show me 'yes I can live',
Don't give me just words,
Don't you shove me in a crib.

And when I can breathe,
In a world which is choking,
When I can blossom in the muck all soaking.
Every morning when I won't be getting up with another day to fight,
Then and only then tell me that 'everything will be just alright.'

Ye Aag Prabhu Ki (song)

ch ...
Ek aag hai prabhu ki, aur jal ke nikalna hai.
Haan sona banna hai,bas tap ke ubharna hai.

1)
Aajane do mashaal ko, ban jaane do vo bhatti.
Jo saaton baar garmaai ho, haan usme jalne do. (x2)

ch ...

2)
Niklungi main jo barf si,na daag koi na dhabba phir hoga kahin.
Ye Prabhu ki aag hai samet lo, na karo baer bas jal utho. (x2)

ch...

3)
Ek aag hai Prabhu ki bas jal utho,ese odh lo.
Ek aag hai ye Prabhu ki haan shwet niklo, bas Prabhu ke ho lo. (x2)

ch... (x2)

I wana grow old with You oh! Lord (song)

1)
You take me Lord,
You mold me up,
You give me peace & joy,
oh! You fill my cup.

I come to You,
just as I am,
oh use me Lord,
in the name of the Lamb.

ch:-
I wana grow old with You oh! Lord,
I wana giv my life into Your hands.
Am dieing out without Your embrace,
come fill me up with Your mercy & grace.
I wana b victorious in Your name,
I wana overcome,resist to the point of bloodshed.
Take my life & use it for Your glory,
I lay it down,here I am,take my potter this clay.
I wana grow old with You oh! Lord,
I wana grow old with You.

2)
I crave for You,
for You alone.
Come wrap me tight,
all weak I’ve grown.

Your love binds fast,
teary eyed I come,
arms spread open wide,
oh You call me ‘son’.

ch: I wana------clay.
I wana------old with You.
I wana grow old with You oh Lord,
I wana grow old with You.
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Lawaris lahu ki mashaalein...

Lawaris lahu se arahin thi awaazen, ke achanak ek awaaz suni.

Kon tha us dariya me wo sahil,malum na chala.

Ke chalo us aag ko bujhado,jalti hui mashaal ko girado.

Kal na aega mit jaane do us nafrat ko.

Ke lahu de raha hain awazein, lut jaane do sagar ko,

Ke bujhado vo mashalein,aane de aandhiyon ko.

BABY I'M NO 9 TO 5 (song)

1)

What's this?

A thousand times over again,

the deja vu comes alive.
A thousand times I've been wounded.
They make me feel like the newest garment,

shoving me down the shelf once I'm used?

ch:
It's a 'Honey I don't have time' line,

All am left with is 'Am fine' line.
They take me,then cut me and rip me,they are never satisfied...
No no, don't give me those rolling eyes,
thinkin, I've gone crazy like those old wives.

Am shredding and breaking and falling,
I am walking dead alive.
Yo baby I'm no 9 to 5.

2)

Being tossed up from the north to south,

they treat me like inanimate.
Yea tossed up like the old dry leaf.
They make themselves all justified,

stating me a bugger and their peace's thief.

Ch: It's a ----- 9 to 5.

Bridge:
Stop pushing me away like a pest.
Oh! stop ignoring me, don't put me to test.

Your love,care,attention I crave,

honey am your friend, have some mercy I pray

Ch: It's a ------alive.
It's a ------ 9 to 5.

SHADOWS UNBOUND (song)

1)

There are wishes I've tied,

chains threaten to break.
They screeched as they cried,

I hurtled to save.

Yet closing I stopped,

when I heard my own sigh-

Fool... Don't you know, how I died?

ch-
Sometimes I wish,I never say that prayer,
bury it deep,so I wouldn't try it and bear.
Sometimes I wish,I wish I never say out loud,
let those wishes pass by,

like shadows unbound.

2)

I hovered again,
consequences came by.
I was dragged down the lane,
not a blink of the eye.

Yet closing I stopped------- I died?

ch - Sometimes I wish----- pass by.

Yea sometimes I wish.

I wish I never say out loud---- unbound.

Anjaan Safar

Akele hum the, akela tha har rasta...
Hum chalte jarahe the yun hi andheron me,
kadmo ke nishaan bhi na chuye.
Parchayin ne hamari,adat badal di.
Raas na aane laga kisi ka bhi haath.
Khud me hone lage gum phir se,
ya hai ye kuch pagalpan ki khumari?
Simat gai khushi band kamre me man ke,
muskurahaton ne bhoola ghar apna.
Chale jarahe the thukraye hue yun hi,
ke koi apna andheron sa dikha.
Chor aae the jinhe yaadon me peeche,
vo hi khushi aur sath ka hamraaz bana.
Ek pal na socha phir kya hai vo sama,
gale se laga lie use,vo roya tha kitna.
Vada kia khud se,ke kabhi usse,
jisme mere dukhon ka aks tha;na churayenge hath apna,na mahsoos hone denge vo jo mujhpe tha beeta.
Sab kuch jo luta rahe the uspe;jise na tha hamare hone ka bhi pata,
barsa dia uspe jo bas isi me khush tha ke ham hain...
Dia use jo usne tha khoya aur hamne paya vo maksad gahra.
Aane laga tha yakin,
ke hame banaya gaya tha dusron ke hi liye,
jisme the mera har pal haseen.
Jo chala jaraha tha andheron me khoya hua,
vo hi bana dusron ki raahon ki roshni.
Vo dhoond raha tha khud ke liye paron ka aasra;
Jab zanjeeron me ashkon se doobi ankhon ne yaad dilaya,
ordhe hue taer raha tha vo hi;Khuda ki rahmat un paron ki zimmedari.

Dhoondte hue chale jo aage apne jese khushnaseebon ko,
takra gaye ek ayeene se;jese mera aks ho.
Vo hai aatmik aur duniya ki samajh rakhne wala,
pehchana use ese jese abhi nahi par sadiyon se sath piya ho apni dosti ka pyala.
kaha usne 'main kahin na jaunga kabhi.'
Bhar gayin phir ankhen jab yaad agae jaanewale sabhi.
Kahta hai har koi yun pehle yahan,
bol ke chala jaata hai zaroorat nahi tumhari mujhe; hai mere paas sara jahaan.
Najaane kyun lekin phir kia yakeen,
us aks se dost par;
magar en lafzon pe nahin.
Ye lafz hamesha dhokha dejaate,
cheen ke mere dil se vo sathi lejaate...
Dar lagta hai ensaanon se mujhe,
ye vaayeda kar ke jannat tak sath ka;mujhe dozak chor jaate.
Phir taer rahen hain magar;paron ka abhishek lie,
saath ek aur paron ki rehmat wale ke...
Dosti ke nazraane ka phir jokhim liye,
bas kuch hi to aur lamhe bache hain;unke sath guzaarne ke...

The Fairy Tale's Over

A knight in shining armor,
a damsel in distress.
A lone slayer of the invisible,
a beautiful stranger in search of his quest.

They meet and part their ways,
they love and long for those days.
Their fates are sealed in black and white,
to be read and forgotten by the bright.

Alas! their mystery tale ends,
abrupt, abstruse, without a clue my friend.
They wait,they suffer,they die in their love,
their death is made brutal in the rain of their blood.

Ye Anjaani Raatein

Neela hai andheron me bhi aasman ye kyun?
Jalte hain chiraag yun roshni me bhi kyun?
Taaron se kuch der baatein jo karne chale hum,
to gum hain taaren bhi aajkal yun chaand ki baahon me kyun?
Main yun etna tanha hun khun??

It's All Out ...

It's all out now,
draining my system of the dust now.
The pieces I gather up for you to take away,
it's the traces that remain for me to blow now.

You're not responding the call of honor,
you're not going all the way up to the corner.
My heart I burst it open; now you,
I lay my dying self all broken,
come... See the scars.

Ain't it out now?
Leaving me to sulk into the sand now.
Oh do you realize the hour of misery?
I see you pouring down all through your eyes now.

The hour is coming,
(The hour).
The light is burning,
(Burning in my soul now).
My feet are frozen,
frozen on your blood stained street here,
Let me get away...

LIFE'S MOCKERY

No don't call me away from myself yet,
I just lost another of life's cruel bet.
Let me sit here and ponder a while more,
gaping,hoping at the closed black door.
knowing that he's not the one, knowing that it can't be done.

My mind is sinking; escaping than to accept,
it turned stubborn in its face; to the belief it crept...wept.
Come take away my memories of him and his words,
detach me from this full circle; make me fly away like those birds.

A bird he called me; look how my wings were torn apart,
dyed in crimson; heinously cut and thrown in the death cart.
Pull,pull,pull me to the old place afar,
his words of love burns me pleasantly; makes my heart coal and tar.

Alas! Alas!
It shall not come to pass...

IT...

Hard to find and quick to lose,
that's what it is;careful what you choose.
It takes away your nights;it sometimes surrounds you in darkness,
it makes you see all wrongs like rights;it sometimes levitates you in brightness.

Its distracting, attracting, pulling in its black hole when your reacting,
its forgiving, pursuing, the epitome of selfless sacrificing.

Beware its conquerors;it deprioritizes,
beware the unfaithful;it always revitalizes.

All this and no more,
recognize the real one before you're on all four.
Listen to this last rhyme and fix yourself before you pose,
careful;here's how it goes -
Do not grasp it above all things,
but do not blast it my friend; when you know divine confirmation it brings...

Super Massive

Hey don't tamper with the truth,
i want everyone to believe the lie.
Cause i don't want to deal with it,
It's too much to take,just leave it aside.

It's amazing how my strength increased a thousand times,
how my heart stopped beating, seized from mourning the twisted rhymes.

It is the best cure my aching soul obtained,
soothing someone else's cries than mine, the lost purpose regained.

I am happy in healing others, their sorrow,
I am happy to see their smiles that follow.
It seems am finally settling down,
Becoming a woman, winning the maturity crown.

You can't keep running till forever he says,
Oh how i wish he may not look through me, escaping is one of my ways.

The wind is colder tonight,
seems the storm is soon to hit the sky.
I wish to stand in it's midst firmly,take wings and with it fly.
I have to defeat again and again, i have to kill the stalker,black or white.

* Iron Wont Rust *

Strong.. I guess I am, to take it head on.
If not right now, then when it comes, I wont be on the ground.

I wont go to anyone, wont tell it and cry out loud,
I'll just sit within me,close all doors again and lock it forever no doubt.

I am a human, mortal and dust,
yet that day, I'll stand like iron.. wont crumble,wont rust.

Let Me Die !!

Let me die, Oh let me die,
no strings attached with this world where I lie.

Take my breaths Oh Lord from me,
in perfect peace away from this world I want to be.

Take my soul and keep it in Your store,
out of this caged body I want to freely sore.

Let me die Oh Lord let me die,
with little that I have, this prayer I earnestly cry..

Corpus Christii - The body of Christ

Corpus Christii Thao broke for me.
Three cruel nails pierced Thy palms and feet,
Oh! corpus Christii they peeled Thy very skin out of Thee.

Thao bore the pointed wires on Thy back,the hunter and the sticks of rejection so silently.
They scraped every inch of Thy corpus,oh! it was the limit of brutality.

They took Thy linen and casted lots for it,
gave Thee a mocking royalty and made the thorny crown on Thy head to sit.

They marched Thee on the city streets with wounds exposed that shouted to the stone hearts to come and believe.
yet they so easily nailed Thee to the tree,oh! wicked souls,no they did not grieve.

All this did not yet satisfy them and they punctured finally Thy side too,
still oh Christii Thao hung there and prayed so earnestly "Father forgive them for they know not what they do".

Thao took every bit of their sins and gave Thy spirit in the hands of Thy father,
Thao knew they will spit on Thee,slap Thee and curse Thee,still Thao drank the cup in Gethsemane saying to the Lord 'not my will but Yours rather.'

Oh! corpus Christii Thao gave Thy blood to cleanse me,
ascending to heaven oh! corpus Christii,Thao sealed in Thy kingdom a perfect place,just for me.

The Holy War is on...

The heavenly Armour is on,
Lord's armies gathered up.
The weapons of righteousness in our hands,
We march on,we march on.

Devil's angels tremble fearfully,
our God is on our side.
Look how your master escapes,
We march on,we march on.

This holy war will sweep you off the face of this earth,
you'll burn forever yet death will not save you so soon.
Are you repenting when the time's up?
Oh give up,
We march on,we march on.

Come now out of your invisible hiding oh you Satan,
face the truth which comes true,
the heaven and earth are passing away,
but see our God's word,how furiously it's chasing you.

We march on,we march on
where do you think you'll hide?
The war's on but the battle is already won,
come now Lucifer,weak and lost as you are,
it's time you make the lake of fire your bride.